hahah hihi..~

my lovely blog !!! how r u ?..gt miss me mou ? xD

haha...really long long long time tak ada on blog lor ^^..
ok lar..2day very kixiao..><..
went bbq at shu theng's hse with 2 zhi xD..
we started 2 makes the fire up..==..but all guys failed..==
so sad..haha xD..lol..from 5 pm until 7 pm..finally..we successed !!
thn after eating..until abt 8 15pm..we started our balloons game..
and wish happy birthday 2 xian hue, jing wei and cheng jiu ^^
the balloons is hurt..==...so pain...and i injurted..same as jing wei too..
but jing wei more serious thn me lar..
we use T-shirt in swimming pool..><..kena the owner marah...haha
i think..this will b a unforgettable memories for me..^^
oh ya~..also THX the ppl who gave me presents..EUNICE!! ~ ur "鑫"运瓶 very nice~ but i think it's more suitable for u..==..cz it's pink ! BAO YUAN~thx for ur drawing..although it's..weirD? ZHI HAO~thx..ur DIY card..^^ really nice ~



i also starting write novel leh.><..really suffer..hard 2 think abt next epi..haha..wish me the best ^^

=(

想都没想过，是这样..
aihsss..why ? T-T

50th posts

50th posts..i gav u..
but the 100th..
will i giv u too ?


朋友对我说过，
她迟了..
已经晚会不了那段感情了..
那还有另一个女生呢？
是不是也一样？
那个另一个的女生，都不知道自己在想什么..
当那男生对他还有热情的时候，
那女生..竟然只回了他..“是”，“嗯”
之类的话。。
女生以为这个是对以前也是说过同一类的男生
的报复...
没想到的是。。
最终，是她自己后悔了。。
她每当想起他的时候
总是不想去想起他们俩在一起的甜蜜时光。。
她怕，她真的会后悔。。

（还有下集 =p）

xD gt happy and T-T sad...

which one will u all prefer ?
i prefer the sad 1 1st..
aaa....T-T
ben lai wan 2 out volleyball d lor..
ni x x mou duen duen wan 2 sign wht
保留名单！！！walao..==
wht lai d ohhHH
==...siao...
suan liao..T.T at last i didnt sign..
thn whn we r going 2 competition..
my friend told me..she helped me signed edi
W T x...==
wuu...suan liao..i hav 2 stay 1 more yr..
haizzz..


2day we had our volleyball competition in
ISKL
it's a international school...
wooAAhh...all guai lou..==
haha xD ppl speak english d leh..
my friend still said..==
many ppl kissing..when we in the schooll...
soooo.....pity...
i didnt seeeeeee !!!!
==...i didnt see ppl kissed bfore..xD
ahahhaha ==
lol...i knw u will saying me pervert...
but IM NOT !!! just curious..hahaha
okkk....bcz this competition is under 15 yrs old..
amanda and qiao ru hav 2 gambateh liao..
bcz without senior..hahaha
lol..><
happy lor..bcz they very big size but not very geng..
thn gt dig until..improving..
this time onli..== hahahah xD
thn we won lor...xD
5 matches...
3 vs 2..
the last match...is ply ply onli..1..
hahaha xD

T_____T

i cried...not because of love
i cried because of my voice..
the voice tht was important for me..T_T
why..everythings tht r important to me.
will going far apart from me..
why ??!!!
my sound...my voice..
the voice..for me 2 b
DJ
MC
T___T
the voice for me to
sing
laugh
talk
say
announce
scold ppl
T___T
my voice....really going far apart from me..
pls come back...pls!!
I CANT TALK WITHOUT U..
I CANT LIVE WITHOUT U..

thtday my fren told me tht..my voice no nice
my heart broke..
everyone is telling lie 2 me..
they saying my voice is nice..
it's a lie !!! a big big lie..
my DJ dream
why TuT
55555555
im not telling lie..
voice is important for me..but it just go so far from me..
T________T
i wan to cry...
my life is just a mist..

aa!!~~ art stream..^^

art stream..meet u next yr ya ~~!
i hav 2 pay attention already..really..!!
1st thing i hav 2 do is..==
do my art 1st..==
many hw..zz havnt do..omg

lol..shermaine, wan chean and i..><
went to eat ice..b4 go jusco..==
omg..
shermaine..u ate rice and mee..
==..how can u eat so many things~~!!??
so geng
wan chean..>< do ur pharmasis~(spell wrong gua)
jia you !
shermaine..computer.~~
^^ support both of u..
zi qing !!!xD meet u in college too..><
...>< love ya

went jusco with many ppl..==
ehh..the movie nice !!
thx rong yao..explain for me..
yeaah~ ^^
but really nice..!!
woohoo...i duno wht's the movie name..==

3 ai..!! gambateh~xD

sarah..chngd ur glasses..hope it's suitable for u..^^
i also wan buy glasses nie..><
haha..xD monday go gap..bb~

==.......

>< ah..pei you also cut boy hair !! woohoo..
hapi..gt ppl teman..
hahahah xD

yeah..b best fren with zi qing..and wan chean
^^
sry..dam dai u all 2day..dun angry me pls..><
u all will always my best fren..>< i'll promised..
just hope our frendship wont..bcome..
fader..==...ltr charm..T.T
i really hope can..continue our frenship forever..~ really

and wan chean..><..dun think too much, k ?
everyone also hav their secret..mayb they will tell u in the right time..^^
but..i wont keep secret to u..^^
u also dun keep secret 2 me, k?
we r frenss !!!
zi qing..u also a..><
gt wht prob..also say out , hao bu hao..><
i really very care about u..^^ haha XD
macam ur mama..loL~
y u dun wan go..2..the trip..T.T
nvm..haha..next yr ..i mesti go find u d!!

wth!!!

omg...>< ytd pergi go cut boy hair..
many ppl asked me why go cut..
lol~..kerana saya no cut boy cut b4 mar
wan try try~..
mana tahu will macam ni..??!!
the lao ban liang still say..
my head very suitable for all types of hair d..
T.T kena her lie liao..
>< sui gak~~
suan lor..
i will wait for 2 months..
everybody !! wait for myyy...hair ba ^^~~

my cute member face mm gin jor..wuuu

2day art class...shermaine, zi qing, rui min , wan chean and i..
><><
thx wan chean..u say mine true edi..
hehe
zi qing !! hope u really can marry a rich man and treat u much good ^^
rui min.. u r a business woman...>< gah yaw !!
shermaine...bcome urself pls~ ^^ i knw u can...i love u..~~
wan chean..sry..
i mean im not saying u will break in this yr..><
just...kidding d...><
my six sense very poor 1...pls dun believe me
sryyy~~




football..hehe...fun la of course...
keep out ! OUT ! OUT !
zd lor..bi bi bi i think the refree also very tired of bi us..
penalty..== 3 cheng in ball..
kena bernice..><
bernice r u ok ?
u r good in goal keeper !!~
we love u.. ur the best..
gloria..u also did well ok ?~
bing xiu and yu xuen~ yeah ^^ gambateh

^^ hapi and sad..==

每一天都会有欢笑及忧伤~
我不会觉得太难过~
因为我至少开心过！><
喂~~shermaine..
yu xuen~~~
carmen~~
pei yin !!!

我们今天约定过的~~一定要做到哦！！
^^
虽然是哭了一下子~~
不过还带来了欢乐！！
永远的朋友~~！！！！！！爱死你们啊~






就是玩玩玩咯，踢足球~
踢到我的文件夹全部留在新运动场~
没带到回来。。我很悲！！！
明天的稿，怎么办？？>< wuuu~~

im not joking right now..

member !!!!! be serious pls...><
when can i serious to myself??!!!
i wan 2 in science stream...i thought it's my dream ~~!!!
but y cant i pay my attention in class..T.T
i need my soul back..
giv me back plssssss~~!!!!

i didnt pay attention in my ball..
wan 2 b a digging pro..==
haiz...failed in it..
i hav 2 gambateh !! cant b lazy anymore

my exam..T.T i dun wan 2 bcome the last 1 in class..
see !!! everyone is hardworking everyone is
putting some effort in their study...
wht i hav done ?
i done nothing..T.T
member aaaa !!!!!!!!
ppl scold u awhile..dun keep crying , ok??!!!!
u hav 2 bcome bravier !!!!~~!!!
brave...is important in social..
pls rmb !!~~..><
noone will helping me..i knew..
so i hav 2 put much much much effort..
but i cant..why ??!!!
i need my confidence...~~~
lost..T.T really....
im finding...my way..my road..
i dun wan 2 turn wrong junction...i know i will regret..

不要被人来选你，
而是你去选人家~

i rmb..my mom told me when i was std 6..
mommy told me..when u get the good result..
u can hav ur opinion...2 choose the others..
and not waiting ppl 2 choose u..><
so..
pls b confidence, member !!~
^^ i believe in myself..~

i wan 2 cry...

ytd...su san told me..jiji..said..
my result..is at bhind..T.T
dunno why..even i knew..my result is at bhind..
i still very sad..felt wan 2 cry..
jiji said..my result very bad..
but she still said..she understand..
bcz..i didnt go 2 infront class b4..
T.T i wanted 2 jia you...but..no use..
im still so stupid..T.T

tht day ..
im really serious when warming up lor..
gidian(dunno hw 2 spell)
said..i dancing..no serious..T.T
yuan wang..i really trying 2 improve !!!!
i hate ppl simply say..
but i cannot cry...T.T i told myself..
i hav 2 tahan...cannot cry!!!!
T.T finally i really didnt cry....

justnow..gor gor called come..
said..wan 2 buy food for me..
asked me wan wht food..i told him i dun wan..><
thn he scolded me..called me must eat !!
>< im very touching..1st time gor gor will take care of me...
wuu..if future..gor gor still like this..thn so good ~~~^^

你~永远是我最珍惜的人！

我还是接受不到你的改变~
T.T我要回你自己~~
我们是好朋友~><永远都是~~
我不知道要怎样面对你。。
我怕。。你改变到我不知道你是谁了

我们会分开吗？
我知道。。我们会~
不过~~我却还相信你对我是真实的！
因为，我相信，你对我说过的话~

我们要分开了~
明年。。可能会分开~也可能不会~
><
我要原本的你。。
T.T

哎~

原来眼泪可以删去笑容。。
最近好像很少笑~~>< 我的灿烂的微笑。。 越来越少~ 为什么？ 哎~因为没有人要陪我一起疯
一起笑~
我以前都爱撒娇~
现在~那个笑容。。已经消失了~T.T



妈妈说,明年还不确定会不会接我去
因为她在那边还没算是定居~
就算她已经定居，我也不知道我要不要去~
哎~因为我不想做电灯泡
哎~因为我知道我不会照顾自己
我怕辛苦..
我怕我会在我妈妈面前哭。。
因为，妈妈总是会让我哭得稀里哗啦~哎

...

very sibuk eh..this week..
many exams..T.T
i hav 2 bu kao..
u knw..wht is bei mar ?
now im very bei..==

thn 2moro..zhao hui..
omg !! im tired..
still hav 2 do hand card..
==..lol..
sien aaaaa..dunno 2day wht time slp

pressure..always in my heart
duno why.><
sarah said..is come from my brain..
it's not logic..
but i believe her..==

pei you called me 2 recover our relation..
i also dunno wan or not..==
dunno i still gt feel or not..
>< just felt very touching...he had done for me..
== hope u will b more merchuat..><
mayb can find wht i wan from u..lol~~~
i wan love..!!~~
friend's love..
family's love..
any love..><
haizzzzzzz...mayb..im not enough in love..T.T

haiz

just now webcam with mummy..
she asked me whether i wan 2 go sydney or not..
i terus say wan..
>< bcz..i dun wan 2 effort those..stress things..
but..
hw i wan 2 study at thr ?
im onli 15..
next yr 16..if i went thr..
..><
sumore..
will i..comfort to b thr ?
i scared..ther..will a stranger place for me..
>< i scared..i no fren at thr..
i scared..my mum..hav 2 take care of me..
im really scared..
T.T
but..wht should i do..
mummy said..
still hav 2 ask the agency..
about my situation..
bcz..mayb i cant..
study until half in mlysia..
thn go 2 australia..


im waiting for the answer..but if..australia..can agree..
my this kind of half situation..
thn..next yr..i hav 2 say bb with mlysia~~
bb my fren~~
bb..~~~>< i hope..the way tht i hav chosen..
wont..makes me regret~~

yeah !!

lol.. i thought sore throat cant guang bo..><
hoho xD.yeah
hapi lorr..learnt many mant things from thr
at least now..if i said wrong
i will chng the format i said..
but sometimes..== i will forgot
wht should i say..
>< but nvm..
i learn somethings
i learn talking
i learn guang bo
im hapi !!!!
^^ yeah~~..took many many pic ~~

wohoo..li wen bing xiu ~!!!
we felt proud..bcz of u 2~~!!@@
yeah ^^
lol..guang bo them also..
gt more energy..
haha XD
"第3名，刘炳秀！！
第2名，xxx
第1名，林丽雯！！破大会纪录！！！"

wohoo !!...fun~~~><

chong hwa sports day.....the ever 1st time..and the last time><

hehe..im touching~

>< 2day wan go kepong jusco d..
thn hujan pula~~always like this 1
but nvm..we still hav jia qing's car 2 sit..
hoho xD
so i , shermaine and choc jie~
waiting for jia qing's car lor
wait wait wait..wait until 4pm liao
== walao
suan..
>< 2day when they r deciding..whr should we eat..
shermaine and xian hue keep
think for me..
thx xD
u 2`~~
my throat lor..
makes me suffer..cant eat chicken rice shop~
haizzz~
saya next time mesti mau makan!!!
chicken rice..wait for me oo.>~
+
arikato xian hue and shermaine..keep
think for my throat and..
more jelas thn me..



xian hue mama~
thx u too~~
hehe...u gav me many many ubat.~
abt throat..><
kaka xD arikato~~~
i think..my throat gt better lorr~~
i will gambateh ddddd~ ^^
thx

呵呵，exited

lol..sports day !! faster mari ...
kaka xD
hapi 2 b choosen
2 announce...><
although i knw im will b very nervous
but..i love it !!!
>< wohoo
i love 3 ai
love my frens
love my smile..o.0
but i dun like my laugh..
haha xD
hope i will b hapi everyday
i dunwan to sui 3 ai~~
i wan in science stream ~~!!
MYＬＩＦＥ．．already....
bcome...fate

wah wah

没有目标，什么是我滴目标？
为什么别人的人生那么丰富的？
为什么我没有的？
T_T 我只要一个完整的家~
给我好吗？
为什么？就是不给我？
我真的会很乖的~
哥哥，我从来没后悔过当你们的妹妹
虽然，有时我真得很尽力去挽回跟你们的话题
不过我真的没有东西可以讲了
我真得很想好象小时候酱，躺在你们的怀里
T_T虽然那些记忆，有点少，不过
是真的很幸福..
我再也找不到了。。
><
其实，我是多余的~
到哪里都一样。。
在家里，家人都没有关心我。。
到别人家里，看到朋友有妈妈爸爸的关心
真得很羡慕
我曾经拥有，我真的真的知道的~
不过。。现在已经没有了

>< hapi~

erhmm..>< lol~ sry..long time no write blog jor
lol~
tht day went S.H hse..><
finally !!! didnt rain..cough cough..
haha xD
thn went with donkey and S.H lor~
sry eh..shermaine.>T-T
very sad..
hehe..~~ gambateh in sports day !!~jia yawww~

lol..tht day monday..went ur hse again.>< pai seh~
hehe...we went 2 the playground..in the big park ~
yeah..
kaka xD
very funny..in our conversation..><
had a nice day..^^







xian hue jie ~~ ^^
erhmm..tht day watched toy story 3
with u all..>< wohoo~
hapi..although..i still dun understand
the different of using 3D..==
lol..no effect..
T-T sad
but hapi bcz 1st time use..the
gogle..>< kakakakaka xD









haiz...now..sad time liao.~
>< result..==
i wonder...could i get 70%+ average
i failed 2 subjects..in average..
im sad !!!!!
im stupid !!!
im dumb !!
im noob !!!~~
OH MY GOD...i felt very sad..T-T
to waste my parents money$$
im stupid !!...y i nid 2 study again..><
im really tired..and nid some rest..
im not really can effort so many pressure
T_T

咔咔~

为什么爱不能长久的？><..本来我觉得他们会很永久的，
却一下子听到你说，要分了~T-T really gt something sad
虽然有很多不开心的事，不过我还是努力增添我生活上的色彩~
因为我知道，我生活，是为了弄别人开心~^^
我努力不让别人伤心，
不过，为什么，我每次都做不到？
我想弄他们高兴，却不知道我的方法对不对~
好像觉得他们把我隔得千里之外..
不过，我还是不会放弃的~
因为，你们在我的心目中已经占有地位了..
咔咔~
我害怕人家不欢迎我，
我还怕人家把我推到远远的，不让我靠近，
我怕在这个世界上，已经没有需要我的地方了..
（T_T每次我写blog,才知道我自己其实是这么想的..呵呵~）
所以，我努力把伤心抹过去~
勇敢在站起来！
我们一起加油，好吗？^^

wahh !!!

我不讲你们不懂，我讲你们也不想听==
算廖，我还是要讲！！哈哈xD
今天，肚子不听话，在那边叫==
所以我就去mc.donald。。吃~
吃吃吃！吃完了，跟朋友kenggai
keng下 keng下，朋友说去买东西
我就坐着在那边等。。顺便用电话上网luu
然后看到朋友回来，mou duen duen 去ls 别人==
瓦老，吓死我。。原来是
看到吴秀菲and洪俊豪整家人吃mc.donald
==
哇。。很尴尬。。(我觉得)
lol..
其实没有重点。。
就觉得很巧。。ok la..拜拜！

^^

hehe..this holiday..really li d sienz~
im not saying jokes now..
really SIENZ !!
but i rather stay at home..
more thn listening SIEN yiyi..
teaching..==
atleast i can slp whole day in home..~
hoho xD i knw u all will say im pig..==
thrfore..i really fat j0r..
T-T annoying.~
irritating !!!
lol..== st0p liao~~

hehe..this holiday ..i keep watching drama
==
next stop happiness and..devil beside me..
zz i knw the 2nd drama i watched is..
little bit old..==
but nvm..><
atleast i hav done something in my holiday
and learnt something..><
hehe xD
i h0pe i can go to university ..>< faster go go go
mayb gt leng z@i..>< gagaga...l0l
tht's not my point to go taiwan ler..><
i dunno whr should i go..tht's a prob~~!!
haiz..

i just hav to pay attention in this yr..><
and gambateh in my trial exam~
i hav 2..get some..good result..
if not i will b very upset~.
tht's all~ buai~ ^^

??

我。。好像真的变了？~谢谢你
你告诉了我，我真的变了。。
以前的我，一有心事，就会赶快告诉别人
以为告诉了别人，会有人帮助我，安慰我。。
原来，是我错了。。别人才懒得听你的心事勒~！
哎~。。有心事，就躲在房里哭。。
这是最新的研究。。==
因为不要让别人知道我很脆弱。。
要别人开心。。
哎。。
>< sry eh..那天庆祝S.H的生日时，哭~
很扫兴。。
对不起，我不是故意的。。我已经努力在忍了
一想到那件事，我的泪又开始流了。。T-T
伪装。。伪装，伪装。。~~

??~

我真的会反省吗？
呵呵，其实好像不太可能。。
真的觉得自己变了。。
什么事都开始常在心里。。不告诉别人。。
文静很多，咔咔~
哎~
尝试忍着生气。。正在努力中。。
^^
其实真的有发觉到，有人不是很喜欢我。。
我正在改变~~><
pls giv me some time..~

其实，我在这班真的学到很多东西。。
学会忍耐，学会不比较，
学会乐观，学会去面对。。
哎~~比较，很辛苦，真的，没有骗~~
萨蒂（sad ~）

1天内的心事

第一次，1天内那么多心事。。
B型肝炎。。唾液传染。。遗传。。
刚才问爸爸的时候，他说的。。

遗传，遗传，遗传。。一直在我脑中。。不断重复。。
T-T 3号的爸爸有B型肝炎，他也因此得到了遗传。。
不知道，他自己知不知道。。
爸爸叫我不要跟他们share吃东西。。
不过这样会不会影响到我们的感情啊？
T_T 哎~我是不是应该为了他想，而跟他解除关系呢？
烦~~



哎，又是因为他。。一直怕我会不会成了他的负担
会不会一直因为我而心情不好。。
会不会因为我每次都很喜欢跟“哥哥”们玩。。而是他不开心。。
会不会因为成绩而感到。。不开心
一直烦。。是不是应该跟异性保持距离啊？
不过。。我很喜欢我的生活啊，我不想为任何人改变~



。。妈妈，不知道你几时回来。。我好想念你啊~
我不知道，我在这里还要撑到什么时候。。
我快喘不过气了，我觉得这里好辛苦。。
T-T wuuu~~

haiz...wow

sometimes really appreaciate...jia en...them
they hav a..true frens..><
everythings do 2gether..
im just looks like a..outside ppl..(stranger)
sometimes..really felt..sad..(bei T-T)
bcz...my social problem..==
dunno is..im too bad or wht..(mayb is)
lol..
hope..

dis time ji ji chng place..wont..
chng until the place i dun like larh~^^
opstimistic (i think spell wrong jor..><)

T-T i did my best ?? really ?!

每次在学校哭。。是因为成绩。。这个我真的承认
不过。。我为什么哭？
考到差，所以哭。。
那为什么考到差，我要哭？
我是真的努力了吗？真的吗？
凭良心，我真的有想过。。只是。。不知道
为什么。。每次一提到成绩，还想哭。。
写这个的时候。。也在哭。。T-T眼泪已变成了一个行业
哎~
振作！振作！振作！没有想象中简单。。
还要克服我的恒心~~
我真的。。很辛苦。。~！
朋友，真的可以依靠吗？我怕。。
我怕我有难的时候，没有一个人来帮我。。
就是因为太相信。。所以很。。伤




谁要教我，~~我要怎样克服成绩？？！！

ytd volleyball~~

argh..really sry a..bcz ..><
haiz..
i dunno wan say wht..but..
really..>< aaa..=.=

>< hehe..and..bing xiu..not nid say sry 2 me laa..
hehe xD
thx..
gloria + yu xuan..
night still sent sms 2 me..
>< haha..
really..very..
hapi~

hp rosak~~

T-T wuu...hp rosak edi..
gor gor call me use nokia..=.=
walao..hate nokia..
hehe xD

sumore..2day..go deal with tong xin ^^
tong xin..hot dog+onion ring..i'll wait 4 u..
june aa..^^ kk~

hapi !!!~~~

walao..really hapi lor..^^
can announce something edi~~

xin chun miao hui...
really wan "u" faster arrive lor..
kaka xD
luckily didnt join the volleyball
d work..
if not..also cant get this job
hapi dao bao ~
kakaka
^^
u all..must accept my voice o,,
T-T

sorry..

对不起，我不知道原来一直都是这样。。真得很对不起
也不知道，原来那么多人讨厌我。。
我真得很尽力去改善了。。
不过为什么还是这样？
我真的很用心的去交朋友 T-T
用真心去对待每一切
我真得那么热你们讨厌吗？
对不起。。

只是一天的穿着，就说到现在。。
是我穿得怎样了吗？

你们可不可以直接告诉我啊？
我真的很想知道，你们讨厌我什么？

n3w cl@ss, n3w liFe~

haiz..walao..the 1st step i in my class...all 1 band 1 band ..sitting on the chair,talking..==
me..== choosing place lor..
also dunno wan choose whr o.0
thn.. i put my bag edi thn go out long gai..
long long xia..go back class..
thn saw xiao zi le put bag bside me o.0
walao!
thn i take his bag away..><
lol..xian hue come liao..thn start study lor==

my form teacher very fun la..
everytime not say xi bei thn say deng==
lol..thn my monitor..xiao zi le..==
walao..he also quite funny xia d lor
==knw ownself not young edi still ban cute oh..
sakai ==
haha

hey yoz~~

haha..2moro open school o.0
feel..hapi + sad..
weird feeling..
^^ just hapi bcz..
can recognise more new frens..
sad bcz..the fren i wan to recognise
all..result better thn me
wht the...
haizzz..
==
hope the new yr in chonghwa..hiek hiek
can better thn last yr ^^
jia you jia you jia you~~
also hope
i gt the chance to 代表学会 T-T
but i knw..impossible laa...
haizz~~
misty hope~